Partner

Walk away, try harder, stay or leave.

This is how we love.

Sup Tinder

I don't think that we should be surprised when we aren't let down by someone. But we are.
And I am always surprised when I feel this way because it's usually my own fault- I expected more from that human than they ever promised or said they could or would give of themselves. 
But how is that not disappointing to them?

Anyway.

I hate dating... strangers. It makes me anxious and I hate feeling vulnerable to what's shared vs what is (isn't everyone telling me everyone else are liars these days?)- I'm not good at it and I'm not sure that I want to be.

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This is how we love
In small ways
Everyday
Often living,
Forgetting to.

Sometimes, reaching.

Still

I want everything and all at once
I want to love it and enjoy it
All at once forever
But
Always.
I'll do all the work
Everyday
Always.
Cause time.

On Counting Veins and Dimples

Physicals flaws, for the most part, cannot be helped and usually aren't the eyesore the bearer perceives them to be.

It is truly unfortunate how, after listening to a friend talk of said flaws, that we may start to find them in ourselves and spread that poisonous thought pattern on.

If you can't change it embrace it, especially as a woman. We are so beautiful.

On that note, now that the vein counting is complete and I'm over it, it probably wouldn't kill me to run a razor over my legs. THOSE cannot be counted and I'm far beyond car accident level.

Note:

Car Accident Level Definition: Being in some sort of emergency situation where I end up unconscious and luck out to have some hot doctor or paramedic (who saves my life and all things are restored to normal health) but they are initially less attracted to me because my limbs and groin appear to be that of a bush lady

Saw this on Instagram, Actually..

If I had to lump the people I've met and liked and loved in Edmonton,into one category it woukd be this.
Brilliant kind beautiful women who settle because they won't take a chance on themselves and bored, often cheating men,who wish they hadn't taken that one chance with this girl.
Is that horrible of me?
I'm lumping here.

Not all of the women I've met are like this. Not all of the men I've met are like that. Some are brilliant and confident and winding back up the path to confidence. Others are stories of secrets and lies.
It is hard to know the secrets and lies and truths and tears from one another.
It is hard not to become jaded. Or empty.  Or forcefully optimistic.

When a Friendship Fades

When you're falling out of companionship, or growing bigger than your friendship, does the other person notice as well?
I've been faking it for months now and I don't want to anymore..
It's a new month, why not adopt new habits?..
But do I have to tell them...? If they don't feel the same way am I allowed to tell them/hurt them?

Just let it happen on its own right?...