Thoughts on Telling the Truth

If you say that you always tell the truth, even if someone doesn't want to hear it, but you wont be honest about your feelings, what exactly is it that you're always so truthful about?
How I can I trust you if you aren't truthful about what matters the most, your heart; and how can I trust that you would honor my feelings when you aren't truthful with your own?

Pain and Suffering.

Pain. Pain happens everyday. Unnoticeably. In small ways and in huge ways. In unmeasureable ways.
Suffering happens but after a while, suffering becomes a choice... it must be.

Orange is the New Black thoughts on thoughts.

Sometimes I admit, I have chosen- choose to suffer. And I don't even notice it.

Do you?

Thunder Stormy Weather

A disproportionately appropriate number of my clothing items are on backwards or inside out because I thought that the power was going to go out and was hurrying.
Perfectly Adult.
You try putting contacts in in the dark!... RUSHING.

In all of my years, I have always been amazed with the sky, with nature, with animals. This morning the sky was amazing and scary.
I am so glad to be out of the house because I'm pretty sure that the next thunder clap was going to collapse the walls- I've never heard anything so loud.  Like any adult, I was so scared I wanted to cry. I needed an adultier adult to protect me...
Option two: Instead I closed the windows, grabbed my lunch and ran to my car- GET ME OUTTA HERE!!!

Friday Night

Sometimes I just get so excited when I crawl into bed.

Even though I have to work at 5am, I'm still very excited about my 4.5 hours of sleep.

My Metabolism is Older Than Me

You know you're taking your ketosis diet too seriously when you swallow a piece of gum and then worry that the 2 carbs will fuck your progress up.

HASHTAG WHERESMYBEACHBODY

People Dying

I know as we get older, we must learn to exclpext to see more death- our grandparents, eventually our parents, and after much time, our peers, and loved ones. But there's just been too much of it.
I guess we hear about death more because there is more media- whether it be social, news or some version of propaganda.
I am saddened by the loss of old friends to cancer,  aunts and uncles to cancer,  grandparents to cancer. I only ever had 1 grandparent alive in my life time and he died over a decade ago- cancer. Children that I know, teachers, friends' siblings,  coworkers, bosses, more children have been dying too- it's overwhelmingly sad. Car accidents, cancer, undiagnosed diseases, cancer, heart disease, cancer...

And then there are all of these humans that I don't know,  but that I weep for, that have died because of the cancer that has spread throughout America.
Ism's.
Opening fire in a gay club because you don't understand sexuality? Just murdered your own kind...
Blowing up street cars, airports, buildings, busses- exchanging lives for a cause because your educating your own kind on your religion?

I believe that pharmaceutically, we have the technology to cure or stop many cancers.
I know that politically, intellectually, socially and  biologically that we have the cure and need to use the cure, to stop, fix  the cancer that is inside of Americas police.  There is a problem with a few police offers and if we don't give them radiation then they're going to spread and I am deeply worried that they will infect the good officers and ruin any chance of a civil cure.  What on earth are we doing to stop this?
The NRA?
The Nightly Show was right, we did more to protect and prevent the same incident from occurring again when a gorilla was shot than we do our own kind.

We are all the same kind you know- human.

And my heart is breaking for us.

https://youtu.be/R07RyFN1cdY

Lazy Wednesday

I don't understand why I have to remind other adults to cough into their elbw, to wash their hands after the pee, to hold the door for another person, to tell the truth, to chew with their mouth closed...

Also correcting someone who says something the wrong way, shouldn't be an insult or rude- a first world English speaker should know how to say 'cracker'. Cracker. Cwakah. It has 2 r's in it.

But what do I know?!.. I'm hiding in "my room", avoiding the roommate I've never met...  who's the adult now?