Being confident, despite being abundantly aware of my short comings, does not make me crazy or an inevitable cat lady- it makes me willing to love myself despite myself. And being willing to ask for what I need or stand up for myself does not make me bitchy or pushy- it makes me aware of my worth and it is never at the cost of anyone else.
And taking care of myself is already hard to do.
So I'll kindly ask you to stop making it harder.
Bitches all over the place.
I don't think that we should be surprised when we aren't let down by someone. But we are.
And I am always surprised when I feel this way because it's usually my own fault- I expected more from that human than they ever promised or said they could or would give of themselves.
But how is that not disappointing to them?
Anyway.
I hate dating... strangers. It makes me anxious and I hate feeling vulnerable to what's shared vs what is (isn't everyone telling me everyone else are liars these days?)- I'm not good at it and I'm not sure that I want to be.
