I wonder if when you have a really great period in your life, if you can have it again... not that same period, but that level of happiness.
Like I had some of the best times in my life in highschool- granted also some of the worst.
But now that I think about it, I also had a wonderful childhood- the bits I remember anyway.
Ok. And I have amazing friends... that makes me happy.
I've been watching too much of Til Debt Do Us Part and worrying. and Criminal Minds. And buying too many lottery tickets. And working too much and making too little. I've gotten into this sneaky little trend of spending a lot of money on entertainment lately. Movies. Beers on patios. My Limbo boyfriend. More drinking. I've gotten some bad habits lately- which have made it difficult to be proud.
Luckily not less ambitious.
I'm making lists. Lists of people I'd give money too if I won the lottery. Lists of things I will do if I never win the lottery. Lists for debt repayment plans. Lists of people I'd like to be more like and why. Lists of how I could sneak into the neighbours unit and blow up the sub-woofer... got side tracked. But they drive me nuts... loud music ALL of the time. Well, from 9am to 10pm. WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN THERE ALL DAY?! Don't you know I'm sleeping/cooking/blogging/watching tv/singing to my coffee cup/sweating through Ripped in 30?
Anyway...
List of the things I couldn't live without having (like children). Lists of career ideas/interests. Lists. In order of importance... or they will be once I figure that out.
I went to the best wedding this past weekend. Everyone was so happy. It made me want to work harder on making myself happy. Which instantly made me think of money. Which made me think of quickly getting a lot. Which made me smile. Which made me happy. Which, for a moment, reminded me of my happiest times. Whhhiiiich were in highschool. Soley highschool- or so I though. And then the wedding reminded me of the lists I'd thought to start making and all of the research I have to do. to be happy. like I was at that wedding.
Hence this weird blog.
Like I had some of the best times in my life in highschool- granted also some of the worst.
But now that I think about it, I also had a wonderful childhood- the bits I remember anyway.
Ok. And I have amazing friends... that makes me happy.
I've been watching too much of Til Debt Do Us Part and worrying. and Criminal Minds. And buying too many lottery tickets. And working too much and making too little. I've gotten into this sneaky little trend of spending a lot of money on entertainment lately. Movies. Beers on patios. My Limbo boyfriend. More drinking. I've gotten some bad habits lately- which have made it difficult to be proud.
Luckily not less ambitious.
I'm making lists. Lists of people I'd give money too if I won the lottery. Lists of things I will do if I never win the lottery. Lists for debt repayment plans. Lists of people I'd like to be more like and why. Lists of how I could sneak into the neighbours unit and blow up the sub-woofer... got side tracked. But they drive me nuts... loud music ALL of the time. Well, from 9am to 10pm. WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN THERE ALL DAY?! Don't you know I'm sleeping/cooking/blogging/watching tv/singing to my coffee cup/sweating through Ripped in 30?
Anyway...
List of the things I couldn't live without having (like children). Lists of career ideas/interests. Lists. In order of importance... or they will be once I figure that out.
I went to the best wedding this past weekend. Everyone was so happy. It made me want to work harder on making myself happy. Which instantly made me think of money. Which made me think of quickly getting a lot. Which made me smile. Which made me happy. Which, for a moment, reminded me of my happiest times. Whhhiiiich were in highschool. Soley highschool- or so I though. And then the wedding reminded me of the lists I'd thought to start making and all of the research I have to do. to be happy. like I was at that wedding.
Hence this weird blog.
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