Happy New Year!!

I'm quite certain that the last thing that I will think to do tomorrow at midnight, will be to write to this blank page and wish it and who ever reads off of it, a happy new year.

so...

If you make resolutions, good luck with them! You only have yourself to make proud, disappoint or cut loose!
I hope that in each day of 2013 and all of the days to follow, you meet challenges with dignity and courage and that you can find a reason to be happy, and to grow and to act in such a way that when you look back, you will be proud of yourself (I SO cannot say that for myself of so many days and moments in 2012- haha).

love.

Happy New Year!!

Screw you Jillian Michaels.

I just did week two of Jillian Michaels Ripped in 30.
When I thought that I was going to die, the cool down started. Thank GOD the whole thing is only 30 minutes.

I also joined Weight Watchers. blah blah blah I look great. I gained 12 pounds this year... and they have to GO! And my pseudo mom, whom I live with, joined months ago and keeps falling off, so we're going to keep each other on board and live a little bit more healthy, together.

I have to put a happy movie on and finish the 12 Christmas cards that I have to write, scrub down (NYE prep!!!) and read a book.I can get that done by midnight!!

And I just finished all of my laundry. So I'll be ringing in the New Year with everything in order.

And I've barely made a real dent in it, but I think Christopher Hitchen's book, "God is not Great" should be retitled to Religion is not Great. Because God is not real but the idea of Gods are indeed great. By titling the book God is not Great, doesn't that acknowledge that God is in fact real? Which the book is very candid in pointing out, God is not real. Unless imaginary beings that are defined differently be every single person on earth, can be real.
I'm not trying to start a debate. I was just thinking... and my final thought is that the idea of a God or Gods are great, and unifying and hope-giving- it's the religions that are built around these Gods that are so destructive and foolish.

Big New Year's Party!

I cut my final tie to JWs today- no more joint account. I cried right after. We had a really great texting conversation (can you call a text convo that?) the other day and then he clammed up on me again. A good chat with my/our friends last night reminded me what love is... and JWs doesn't love me. And I am realising why that is a good thing.

So then I started writing my Christmas cards (yes I am aware that it's Dec 29th)... It's the thought that counts!!!!!! But I was kind-of in a bummy mood so I started watching tv instead.

And then remembered that I still don't have a job and should look for one of those, and booted up the ol' laptop, but it was being super slow, so I put that aside and wrote the Christmas cards. I have to finish them tonight. I've written 10 so far, 16 more to go. It took me 4 hours to write the 10... probably because I was watching tv at the same time.

I thought to blog because my buddy just asked me what my new years plans are and when I told him I'd be cooking dinner and having drinks with my very good friend, he asked me 'why, what happened?'

I could look at staying in and doing very little as a sad thing... no big party, no midnight kiss and no man to share my new year with, no job and no clear financial plan, plus my heart still hurts from JWs.
But I won't. This year happens to be rolling in at the same time that I am starting a bunch of things new and fresh. A new job (soon I'm sure!), open to new relationships, to moving, to travelling, to planning, to paying off debts.
Staying in just symbolises the respect that I have for myself, my financial plans AND the love that I have for my friend- I get to ring in the new year with a great person!

What are you doing?

They tell me having a gap in your teeth....

...means that you'll one day be very wealthy. I'm thinking for me, that means in company. 

I recently read an article about how now on the dating scene, being asked your credit score is a common question. 

mmmm... I was mortified.

Because I still have student debt, a little bit of credit card debt, and even less in the bank. And at this juncture, no job. I'm my financial advisor's worst nightmare. Any gents out there wanna go steady?!?

I would like to address some of my current issues. Over spending, credit card fraud, lending friends money and they don't pay it back, terrible investments, opening a joint account with someone with creditors and the tax man after them, having your family use your credit card without you knowing, and of course, not having any money coming in... it all puts a dent in keeping everything in balance. 

I tried to get a new phone and phone plan today and they couldn't process it. They phone people just got an alert saying that my credit report is frozen. So I had to call them first to release the protection they have on my account (so I don't get any more fraud). It takes 3 business days. Not how I wanted to ring in the new year. 

I should ring it in alone for safety. 

I am, clearly, one of those people who only learns lessons the hard way. I am such an idiot. 

FML. 

I hate when I have to poo AFTER I've showered.

1. I don't care what you're situation is, do not pee in the shower.

2. Rinse your hairs out when you're done shaving/trimming/pulling them out of you.

3. If you blow your nose in the shower, rinse the shower curtain of your snot.

4. Don't wash your long nasty dead hair down the drain unless you're going to pull it out after your done.

5. Pull the shower curtain closed so that it can dry once the shower has ended.

6. Turn the fan on- and you won't trick anyone by streak-drying the mirror.

7. If you finish the shampoo/conditioner/soap/facewash, put a fresh bottle in instead of filling it with a bit of water.

8. Make sure all of your soap is rinsed out (no one wants to step into the shower after you and wipe out [naked :s] in your soap filth). 

It's really quite sad, and also quite laughable

I'm trying to fit in and make one of my own posters... those ones with a random person sketched on it and some saying about an awkward moment or being awesome.

I was just making dinner (chana masala if you must know) and I was stirring away, thinking about if I used enough potatoes, when it occurred to me- moreover, I had that awkward moment when one realises their ex is totally over them, and you're not.
Like it wasn't abundantly obvious. I think that's the funny part

On only a slightly related note, I never want to be one of those people who are always reflecting on their glory days.
They always have something to add to your current story, reflecting on being in better shape, better looking, smarter, when they went on adventures or travelled. It get's annoying.
To these people I say, continue living and also, know your audience; repeat stories about yourself are mind-numbingly boring.

Don't Forget To Flush

Every person out there has walked into a washroom with the aim to use the toilet and been utterly shocked by the pervious persons bowel movements- maybe they didn't even go poo, but left you an unhealthy looking pee, most of which is all over the seat or floor. Or maybe it's shark week* for some lady and she leaves evidence of the battle all over the seat, floor and somehow the flusher handle.
After nearly vomiting, definitely gaging, slamming the door and picking a new stall OR if you encountered this is someone's home or even your home (hopefully it's just the "looks like my guests/girlfriend/boyfriend/parents/siblings ect forgot to flush- thank god I can just put the lid down and flush it for them so they're private business doesn't spray me") you make your piece with what you previously encountered and do your 'business'.
Everybody knows, if you were in a public washroom, that the stalls you didn't use were gross- because you walked into them and right back out, grimaced, mumbled under your breath (something about filthy nasty disgusting people with no respect) and onto the next one.
If this happens to you at home or at someone elses home- for the sake of your relationship, just flush the damn toilet for them and keep your damn mouth shut. The likeliness of your compadre duecing in your shitter and leaving it there on purpose seems quite fratboyish and otherwise unlikely. Don't embarrass your friends. Jackass. They didn't splay their bowels on your kitchen floor because they don't WANT you to see it. It was an accident. Maybe they didn't realize that in YOUR house you have to hold the flusher for 30 seconds for the toilet to actually flush, otherwise the toilet just makes noises like it flushed. So it's probably your fault your saw your peoples poo, for having a crummy toilet.
Just sayin.

*shark brains look like a uterus, thus the obvious conclusion that a period  = shark week.

I just left my pseudo family for the holidays to come home to my actual family.

And I'm now sitting on 1 of the 3 love seats, little sis across on another and dad on the last (how did I 'score' the only one that doesn't recline?), and thinking about how I don't have a job... I'm not necessarily stoked about the one that I do have lined up for the new year, but the point being, that with no job, I should really be finding time to blog again.
And hit the gym.

Sadly I don't have anything to blog about. Ive been so grumpy and down (what's a better word for that) for the last 4 months I've recently banned myself from tweeting and updating my facebook status more than once a day.
I started having something to say, then got sidetracked hearing a stupid sad love song (pretend like that's what it's called :p) and Chelsey on Love You, Mean It.

I do love Chelsey and Chelsey Lately!!!!

Haha. I have to laugh- I just read over this quickly to check for spelling errors and it's SO depressing. lol. which is funny. Bc that's not me.

Stay tuned for better shit.